I wanted to protect you forever.  I wanted to be by your side forever.  I thought that maybe, if I held the pain inside, I could do it.  I could suffer, and suffer, and suffer, and you wouldn't have to.

But everyone breaks.

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Have you ever had a moment where your heart ached? That moment where it's so unbelieveably hard to breathe, and your throat closes up? You feel like you wanna cry, but you are too horrified, too afraid, to contemplate letting the tears fall. You tremble and close your eyes, wish it weren't true, wish it weren't happening... And when you open your eyes?

It's real.

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Have you ever lost a battle? You stand there on a grassy field, staring around at the bodies of your comrades, right? And their lifeless eyes stare up at you. You think "how could I let them down" or you think "how did this happen" or you think "... why did I kill them?"

Maybe you shouldn't have fought at all.