I know, it's been a while.  *hangs head*  I'm so sorry.  I've just been very very busy with life!  Well, let me tell you what's happened since the last update.

I have finished part one of book one of Those That See, and am going through personal editing before myself and the Publisher (Curiosity Quills Press) will be negotiating terms for publishing.  Yes, dears, that means it is a go (at least on my part).  They love my writing, for which I'm very relieved, and have even expressed interest in...
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Hm.  Where to start...  Well.

Shortly after my previous post, Today is a Good Day, I was admitted to the hospital for a week.  Yes.  The hospital.  I had a bad case of strep throat, and bad dehydration.  They had to keep me hooked up to an IV with fluids.  Luckily, I managed to eat and keep down solid foods after two days.  And I am all better now.

In other news, my partner Jo and I have been working like slaves at a couple collaborative works.  One is completely original, the other a Naruto fa...
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So I feel icky, a little.  I have a continuous cough, I have a damp nose, a sinus headache, dry throat, SORE throat, and bad back.  I didn't get nearly enough sleep, I'm having difficulty breathing and my feet stink.

But it's okay, because this morning, I went to an infant CPR class, and my big sister snuck me in to see my nephew Rioghnan.  Nothing could be better.  I also am getting paid today, I have a mocha latte with skim milk and I got to see my cat Cliodna.  Life is brilliant.

On another ...
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So I'm looking into getting an apartment.  Or rather, Stephy and I are looking into it together.  I hope we're able to, because frankly, I'm ready to move out of this house with my family and spread my metaphorical wings!  (It also helps that I'll have my own room...)  I mean, don't get me wrong, I love my sisters to death.  But I don't want to live with them forever.  (Ew)

Job's going well, imo.  It's fun playing with the little one.  She's very sweet.  She got a little on the fussy side yest...
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So I just got finished watching Captain America, the First Avenger, and I'm now totally psyched for the following movies and the Avenger movies as well.  I want to get around to watching Green Lantern soon, too.  That'll be fun.

I've also recently discovered that they're planning a third Iron Man!  Huzzah!  I can't wait!  *dances*  Tony Stark is by far my favorite.  The actor they chose is amazing, too.

Lessee, I'm also excited for the upcoming Easter special for Doctor who.  It's been a while....
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Well, we got through the first day without a hitch!  Huzzah!  Now, I feel like crap (physically- I might be coming down with a cold...), the muse is nagging me about smut (when isn't he?) and the sis wants me to DO something!  The horror!  *faints*

Shinji: *nudges fainted Ariel with a foot*  Does this mean I can take over your body and grope myself?

Me: ... no.

Shinji: Ha!  You didn't really faint!

Me: ...  *wonders if killing a muse would still be considered murder*

Shinji: Could be worse.  You c...
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So it's the first day of my new job.  I will be looking after a little girl, being paid $100 a week to care for her while her mother goes to school.  She's a beautiful, sweet little girl and I can't wait to get to hang out with her!  I just love babies, and this will be a wonderful opportunity.  Wish me luck, and goddess bless!
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Originally written March 13, 2012 11:43PM

What does it mean, to be human?  Is the definition of humanity, kindness?  Is it cruelty?  Is it the things that you see in us as a race every day, or is it the actions of a few, banding together in the futile hope of stopping a murderer?  Is it those who care most for their family, or the ones that put the planet above even their interactions with others?  Is it the laughter of a child, or the crying of a babe?  Is it giving, taking, hoping, dreaming?...
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Originally written March 12, 2012 10:59PM

So tonight, my brother in law had a seizure. He has been having them for years. He is fine now, but that is not what this journal is about.

Tonight, a man's wellfare was quite literally in my hands. I had to hold him, to make sure that he didn't bash his head in on his desk. I had to hold him while he vomited and shook in my arms. My heart was in my throat and there was a rock stuck in my gut as I clung to this man and held him as still as I could so th...
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Watch it, don't worry about the time, because it's important.

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September 13th (Tuesday), 2011, 11:39AM EST
Weather: Sunny with clouds.
Physical state: Slightly ill, but not enough to stop me from working.
Location: Syracuse, NY, Northside
Progress: None.
I need a job.  Not just this babysitting gig, though it does help.  At least I have my phone with this...  As for furthering my education, well...  I've gotten further on that, but I need to contact my mother (successfully) and get some information from her about my stay in the State of Texas' care, so that I...
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I had a dream last night.  Everyone was pairing off.  My sister had a boyfriend and so did someone else important to me.  So there I was, singing a song in a field (people were watching, and for some reason most of them were Asian).  Someone started to approach, but I wasn't scared.

I ran, singing my song like I was in some sort of musical.  I ran along sloping hills and strange walls that served no purpose other than to be there for me to climb over to "escape" my pursuer.  He didn't give up ...
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My aunt is dying. The one that I hated for so long. I don't know what to think or how to feel... or even why I'm sitting here crying about it. It's finally over. I'm not going to have to deal with that hatred anymore.

But... but she's dying. Pretty soon, she's going to be buried, and there will be a funeral. And every single thing that's ever happened... it won't matter anymore.

It won't matter that I'm hurt. It won't matter that she suffered. It won't matter that she gave us a place when no on...

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Sometimes life hits ya hard, I guess.  I'm sitting here trying not to cry so hard my head starts hurting and my stomach gets upset.  I always end up losing people.  My aunt, my sister...  what next, my brother?  My mother?  My father?  I don't want to lose you, sister.  But it hurts me that you have such utter disregard for everyone.  You hurt me, you hurt our other sister.  You hurt Andy, and my nephews.  I hate the fact that eventually, you'll hurt Danu.  Really, you say you're so much diff...
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sort of like my sister.  My internet has been restricted indefinitely.  I apologize to everyone; I don't want to abandon you like this.  In fact, as I write this, I'm crying to hard that I can barely keep it quiet.  I know, once upon a time, I'd told people that if anyone tried to tell me I couldn't use the internet, I'd punch them.  Well, guys, I guess I'm not a strong enough, brave enough person to stand up for myself after all.  T.T  I wish I could be that type of person.  Someone that wou...
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So, thought I'd update.  I've cut back on fanfiction quite a bit lately.  I've more or less been writing original stuff.  My current projects are 'Tales of the Phantom Court, Those That See', which is book three of the Phantom Court series (books one and two are being written by Geralyn Marin; check her out, she's an amazing writer), The Seraphim and Burning Candles.  I'm quite proud of all of them.  Especially The Seraphim.  Writing for it's a little wacky, but I'll get it.  People ap...
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... with a rant.

Okay, I'd like to address a couple common errors with writing, particularly lemons. I hope someone gleans some knowledge from this and betters themselves, but chances are they'll tell me I'm an idiot (which I'm not).

1) Magically Disappearing Clothing.

This is *very* common, I've found, especially with lemon-writers that haven't experienced sex themselves. The dom gets the sub onto the bed/couch/table/what the fuck ever (literally, as the case may be). They start with for...
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Has anybody read it? If you have, and don't mind yaoi, read! [link] The manga itself isn't yaoi/romance based, but... the story is. Sorta.
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I finally got one. XD [link]
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I wanted to protect you forever.  I wanted to be by your side forever.  I thought that maybe, if I held the pain inside, I could do it.  I could suffer, and suffer, and suffer, and you wouldn't have to.

But everyone breaks.

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Have you ever had a moment where your heart ached? That moment where it's so unbelieveably hard to breathe, and your throat closes up? You feel like you wanna cry, but you are too horrified, too afraid, to contemplate letting the tears fall. You tremble and close your ...
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That's how I feel right now. I feel strangely out of the loop. Cut off, left out... I feel as if I'm... secluded. That's the only word that really describes it. I feel secluded. I'm always writing, so I'm hardly ever talking to people enough of the time. IM can only go so far, after all. I realize this is probably a bit belated/'duh, Sorrow, you didn't notice already?', but... Still. I feel the inexplicable need to actually point out the obvious.

I mean, sure, some people LIKE my writing...
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OMG, you've gotta check this out. [link] This is why my state totally kicks ass.
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Demon Monthly's a group!!! Go visit and join! XD
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Karasu's a Super Seiyan!






... That is all...
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Le gasp! I think it's my first of the year! But I might be mistaken...

Anyway! I am featuring the lovely ! Most of this'll be Yoko Kurama, but that's because I'm highly biased.

1) [link]
OMG. I love this one. If she'd inserted this into mine and 's sexy yoko contest, she'd have won. Hands down. *drools*

2) [link]
I've never seen this pairing, but I have to admit, as a yaoi lover of extreme proportions... If there was a fanfic written to go along that was as good as the pic, I would read it ...
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I call upon you once again, fair people of the world! I need prompts! 50 of them! Please provide!

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Prompts provided so far:

1) Shopping
2) Lullabyes
3) Raindrops
4) To Love Again
5) Suggestion
6) Boundry
7) Measurements
8) Rainy Day Kisses
9) What's This?
10) His Other Name
11) Sick Days
12) No Survival Instinct
13) Great Silver Stalker
14) A Funny Coincidence
15) Fuwa no Reishi
16) Bonding
17) When he falls
18) Just friends... really...
19) When she trips
20) Can't see you
21) Giggle fi...
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This is a collection of plants that I have either made up or found. They are all fictional. Credit goes to their original creators.

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Andraste’s Thread: A special vine and flower plant that the Goddess Andraste created especially for her network of spies. Tiny bulbs that resemble thorns or knots in the vine’s flesh act as transceivers for noise or pictures.

Blinding Bluebell: A small, purplish-blue flower that secretes a sweet-smelling venom to help catch small insects, devouring them...
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UPDATE!!! Here's the link to the Official Site! XD [link]

Help Wanted! Help Wanted!

Hello wonderful watchers! Also to those of you who just happened to stumble across this article! Or were you referred here from someone else? Well, whichever, I'm glad you're here! Spread the word, even if you're not interested yourself, maybe someone else you know might be! Thanks so much for reading, and I hope this strikes a cord of interest in you somewhere!

Now, first off, let me explain why you're he...
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Tis dismal. Absolutely dismal. I am stuck. I am writing this lovely and beautiful UlquiHime story (with yummy side-pairings of UraharaAizen, IchigoShinji etc.), and my muse decided to make me indecisive. I'm not exactly unable to write. Just stuck. I dunno if I should do this, this or that with certain plot points. LUCKILY, I have wonderful friends (o0KittyBlue, Dracoqueen22 and another that I don't know the screenname to so we'll call her PockyPanda for now) that are helping me through this ...
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I do care about others though.  Some.  Not many, but a few.  My nieces and nephews.  My little brother.  To some extent, my sisters, but mostly only because I need their love in return to keep from going nuts more nuts, of course.  Mostly, that caring is thin.  I get just as annoyed by their interruptions of my world in my head as I do with everyone else.

I force myself to like pain.  It helps me deal with it a little easier, I think.  A trick of the mind, maybe.  If it's something -nice- then...
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My life is built on lies.  So many lies, I don't know what's completely truth anymore.  I don't know what's real, what's just in my head, and what's completely and utterly fake.  I think I might be crazy too.  I'm certainly not entirely sane.  I say I believe in things that I don't really believe in, another one of those lies, yet a part of me is convinced and hopes that they're real.  The human mind has to believe in something, otherwise it'll go crazy.

Or so I assume.  I don't know if that's...
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I finally managed to update my original site: Here
So check it out!

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I don't know why, but lately, anything anyone does or says is driving me up a wall.  From being just plain irritable to thinking they can treat me like shit 'cause I'm 18 now.

Not to mention I'm sick.  I feel like someone's taken a paper towel and dried all the moisture from my nose, and then rubbed my throat until it was sore.

I don't know.  Maybe I'm PMSing...?  I've never really PMSed before, so...  It's unlikely.  But what else would explain it?

I've also been restless a lot as of late.  As ...
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OMG.  I just got back from my 18th birthday celebration and it. was. awesome.  First, we mingled at the house for a couple hours, doing this and that (drinking beer XD) and eating dinner.  Then we went out to a gay bar.  I was groped by hott and not-so-hot chicks everywhere.  I danced so long I nearly passed out (and was subsequently forced to buy a bottle of water).  I talked to drunk gay dudes...  But lemme tell you...  It gets better.  After I started to get sleepy (due to having only like...
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It's been cut again... *mournful sigh* The babies are getting a new babysitter... He's kinda weird... I guess I should heed 'don't judge a book by it's cover', but I'm a rather selfish person when it comes to my relatives... >.> Which is odd, since I accepted my brother-in-law rather quickly... *sighs* I dunno. But if I find anything fishy about the guy, I'm gonna put my foot down. He gives me a bad vibe, but that may just be paranoia... -_-
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I'm watching Stargate SG1, and this was hilarious.

Daniel: *pauses* ... This tastes like chicken...

Sam: *raises brow* What's wrong with that? *looks at him curiously*

Daniel: ... *looks down at bowl* ... It's macaroni and cheese...

Sam: ...

Lmao. I loved it.

And then later in the second season:

Jack: Okay... So let's do this. Teil'c?

Teil'c: *raises brow* Hmm?

Jack: Look scary and take point.

Teil'c: Hm...

((Later on, Teil'c got irritated and nearly choked a guy to death for trying to hurt Dani...
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... who swallowed a fly. I don't know why, but she swallowed a fly.

Now, if you get queasy over the slightest things, I suggest you stop reading now.

I woke up this morning and my nose was throbbing. Like it was plugged and something was trying to get out. Well, ladies and gentlemen, that just happened to be the case this time. A fly (or at least I think that's what it was) came out of my nose. It was about three point two five seconds before I started feeling nauseous. I wanted to puke. Peopl...
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I'm almost finished with rewatching the first season. Well, a friend and I were talking about Daniel. He almost ascends quite a few times, dies at least three times, and Gods, I've lost count on how many times he's been kidnapped. @.@ Seriously. My friend was like 'he's a male version of a damsel in distress'. I snorted and told her 'Dude in distress' (all the while watching eppies of SG1). Her reply? "Daniel in Distress". Lmao. So awesome. Daniel needs a tribute. Haha.
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I swear to the Gods, it has been AGES!!!  Seriously, these fries taste like Earth-bound Heaven.  *sighs in pure bliss*  And I haven't even started on the milkshake.  ....  Which melted, 'cause I left it alone too long...  >.>

In other news...  I can't decide which I wanna write and finish yet.  Of course, I'll ply the wonderful KibaSin and DaisKaruna with promises of glory (fake) if they help me.  Both of them are completely awesome.  *sighs*  And so patient.  They put up with my awkward wordi...

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I decided I'd share the rules of my self-made challenge, in case anyone else wants to do it.

1) You must write 100 drabbles
2) Each drabble must be 100 words long
3) It can be any sort of topic you want (fan fiction or original fiction)
4) It must be a pairing of some sort
5) It must eventually tell a story, meaning they can't be just random drabbles, the whole story must have a plot.
6) No, they don't have to be in alphabetical or numerical order. You can put it in any order you want (for example,...
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I'm doing a self-challenge, and I need prompts. Would anyone be willing to give some? I need 100 total, and so far I have 25. I need four people to give me 25 prompts each (I already got a friend to give me the 25), so I need 3 more people to give me prompts...
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Okay, so in an effort to get more deviations and thus more traffic for my club, I am going to start a contest. The prompt is 'music'.

It is a SessKag contest primarily, but if you want another pairing in there, I don't mind. It can be a YouTube vid (just provide a link), a picture, a fic, or even a songfic. Or hell, if you wanna do a cosplay, go right ahead...

Rules: No lewd displays. Nudity is allowed, as long as it's tasteful (meaning no smut, please).

Other than that, I don't care what you d...
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Decided I'd do a little post of one of my stories.  This particular story is a fanfiction, and is highly psychological, so if you don't like that sort of thing (and gore), then please do not read it.  As it is, this is just a preview and a link to the rest will be provided at the end.

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Jorogumo
Part 1
The Beginning of Chaos

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He was in the middle of yet another exorcism.  A man had fallen from the roof of a penthouse, only for those who found him to realize he'd already been dead.  They'd squawked...
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Seriously!  I just posted on FFN my story The Memories Long Forgotten and received a review for it.  Well, obviously I went to reply to said review, but... It wasn't there.  I checked the e-mail, and saw that the person had an account, check that the account was real...  It was...  tried again...  Nothing.  I waited half an hour, and still nothing.  I must be going absolutely insane!  I mean, really!  Urg...  I dunno what to do about this... >.>

And it was a good review!!!  It was actually tha...
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Oh... My god. Seriously. What is it about my stories that attract stupid people? Now, I'm not saying all my readers are stupid, but there is an alarmingly, increasingly large amount of them. For example, this morning, I got a review on MM for my fanfic CIS (Coma Induced Stupidity, YYH/IY crossover, HeKa pairing, beta'd by KibaSin, for those who haven't read it) That told me, "You're moving too fast with the romance", when there really isn't any yet! In fact, and yes ladies and gentlemen, this...
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Gods, I feel crappy today...  Anyway, yes this is my...  uhm... update, I guess...?  Oo  Whatever...  Check out this game: DragonFable  'Tis good.

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I've come to the conclusion that Yahoo! is crap.  Complete and total crap.  Like, crappier than crap.  I press 'delete' and it stalls.  So Yahoo! is officially crap.  Yanno, I'm thinking of doing a daily rant on things, sorta like gossip.  Why?  'Cause it's funny.  Lol.

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Let's try this again.  I tried it before, but the bloody thing said it had an error.  Anyway, I'm watching the series again.  I'm on episode 71 at the moment.  I'm actually looking for some YYHxInuYasha(IY) KuramaxKagome (KagxKur or KurxKag) crossover pairings.

I'm writing a series for it, too.  Um, called 'Colors of the Rainbow'.  They're individual one-shots, and the first is called 'Ruby'.  I've written that and am searching for a beta (if you're interested, e-mail me at elvingoddess768@yah...
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Mainly just for bullshitting around.  Will post links and the like later...  Maybe.  Known around the 'net as TheSorrowfulVampress/VampressofSorrow/VampressSorrow and in some minor places Nishi_no_Shi/Saisha or sesshoumarusmistress.

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